I'm sorry you cried on your birthday. I'm glad you had your D to hug you. I was told to throw ice cubes really hard in my tub when I had to let off steam or frustration. I tried that once and the whole house came running because it was so loud. I think driving and singing in the dark is a better idea.
The worst part of my H's MLC journey for me is not having the person who was my rock and support during tough times, my H, to support me now.