Still married couple from Scandinavia Part 2

[BenB]

Hi everyone,

I should probably post an update as it has been a while. My business, which is live entertainment, has been massively affected by the corona virus so times are tough but I'll be fine. There are so many people who don't even know how to pay rent so I am thankful I can survive without income for a while

W has been coming over to my place a few times to hang out and play with the pug these past few weeks. I´ve allowed it since we were waiting to hear back if the lump she found is cancer or not.
The first time I saw her I felt all those feelings return as I mentioned previously but they settled down shortly after. I can see she hasn't done any work on herself mentally, not that I have asked, but I still see signs of someone who wants to escape reality. It is not an attractive quality. While I've done so much work internally and focused on my growth, she seems to be the same person albeit kinder to me than when this madness started.

About two weeks ago when she was at my place she noticed I had a second phone next to me and asked me about it - 

W: How come you have two phones?

I wasn't prepared for that question and all I could do was tell the truth

Me: Well, there's a dating app, sort of secret although many know about it. It is used by celebrities and people in the entertainment industry. You have to be invited and after that there is a selection process where you will be notified if you qualify. But the app is only available on IOS so I had to buy an iphone.

W: Oh, I've heard about that....so did you get in?

Me: Yeah.

There was some awkwardness but I quickly moved on to the next subject so no silence or anything.

Last week she messaged and asked if we should meet for lunch and we did. There she told me that she got the test results from the biopsy. The tumour was benign, they wouldn't remove it but they'll need to keep an eye on it. So basically all is good but it also means I have no reason to keep seeing her really. Two days ago she wrote and asked if I wanted to join for lunch but I politely declined(I was busy). Yesterday she wrote and asked if I was home. I didn't see the message so I replied about an hour later that I was now on my way home. 

We didn't write more after that. But here comes the tricky part. April 13 means the 6 month waiting period is over and I can now proceed with the divorce if I want to. So far, I haven't sent the request. None of us have spoken about it. If by mid October the court doesn't hear from either of us, we will remain married and have to file for divorce and start the process all over again should we want that.

Anyway, I need to think long and hard about what I want but most likely I will send the letter soon and finalize the divorce.