Sounds like you understand you have an unhealthy attachment to your husband. It’s unhealthy because this man has lied to you, cheated on you and treated you horribly. What is really going on is you feel like you lost all control of your world and you are desperately trying everything to free yourself of the pain and regain control.
The best thing you can do right now is to sit with these feelings understand why you have these feelings and do nothing.
