Sandi, we have slept next to each other twice now. Once at her parents, once at our shared house. She initiated having sex with me and although I was skeptical I did not resist. She has even talked about it with me saying she wants that to happen again.
We hang out for the majority of the day as a family and then we go our separate ways. I'm finding times for us to be apart so we can be alone to think. I find that to be healthy. But she continues to talk future, even me timing having another child. She knew I wanted one for years and now she is saying she does too. Obviously, that is not happening now. She talks about our summer vacation and how she's looking forward to it (if the pandemic allows it). With her talking future, and not me, it's promising, right?
While doing this she continues to apologize. Also, she came over yesterday and said, "you were right, the OM contacted me. He said he's hurt and pissed and I told him sorry but I'm where I need to be and I want my family." I was relieved she told me as soon as she saw me. She said she will continue to do that.
I feel like we are rushing things but I also feel like my W is sooooo different than she has been. Calm, remorseful, patient, understanding and willing to listen to all of my emotions without reacting. I told her I want to start MC before we discuss when she moves home. She agreed. She is allowing me to set the pace. So far so good.
