I have made progress. Still after not seeing him for over 3 weeks... I was weak in the knees to see him.
Today when he kept saying "is there anything else"... no "is there anything else" ... no "is there anything else"... no... I really wanted to say can't you reconsider all this?? Go have your house and shorter commute but recommit to this marriage.
But, I didn't. I held my head high. Looking freaking hot. Who knows if he noticed but everyone says the notice.
Thanks for your encouraging words. I will keep trying to move forward. I'd love to get to the place where things turn around and he would be lucky to be apart of my life.
At least I'm not crying.
I'm working on my emotional attraction. I did not evoke feel good emotions from my spouse. I want to be that safe place to land. I can practice on others in my life - family, co-workers, friends... Maybe my H gets to see that someday - who knows.
I appreciate the advice and will keep doing the things that I can control.
