I'm still here, but at this point, I'm kind of over it. I don't know what this means for me, or for my marriage/divorce.
So we share custody of our dogs; I have the dogs during the week, and she gets them during the weekends. Every Friday evening, she comes by to pick up the dogs. When she's here, we usually talk a bit, but nothing serious. Just pleasant chit-chat, and certainly nothing about the divorce or the relationship.
Two weekends ago, she texted me a picture of the dogs in her apartment. I just responded with one word, "Cuties." To be clear, the picture was of the two dogs, and she was not in the picture herself. So the "cuties" response was clearly aimed at how cute the dogs were, and not at her at all.
Last weekend, when she was here to pick up the dogs, she asked if I wanted to go on a walk with the dogs. I agreed, and we walked the dogs together (something we haven't done together in 8 months). During the walk, we both talked and had a good time. Everything seemed relaxed and normal-ish (as normal as could be expected, given the circumstances). I was generous with my conversation, and so was she.
When we got back to the house after our walk, she noticed that the bottle of water additive that I give to the dogs (for their oral health) was on the counter, and the bottle was leaking a bit. I told her I'm always having to clean it up, but it's no use because it just leaks again the next day. And so later that night, after she had gone with the dogs, she sent me a text saying something about how her bottle of water additive also leaks, and that I should keep the bottle in a plastic cup like she does, so that it won't get on the counter. I simply responded with "Ok thanks."
I don't know what any of this means, but like I said before, I'm kind of over it. I know that I probably should not have responded to the text of the picture of the dogs; and I probably should not have gone on the walk. But at this point, I just don't have the energy to deal with this anymore. I'm *so* emotionally drained after almost 9 months of this, that it almost doesn't even matter anymore. I'm kind of just.....*resigned* to whatever happens. I'm not pursuing her anymore in the sense that I'm not initiating *anything* with her. Yes, I respond when she initiates, but only then.
