The person I am now would not have made so many of these decisions. It's possible our MR would have corrected course, if I could transport myself back in time with the lessons I have learned. But I could not have become the person I am now without going through this process.
Isn't that the rub though? It's only now that you could see all of the errors of your ways. I think that realization actually makes it worse, if I'm being honest, because it wasn't some core incompatibility, it was something addressable all along.
But the good news! There's a great quote in the NGS book, which basically says that once people come to grips with NGS and come out the other side, they're often the best (second) husbands in the world. So you're right - you're not the person you were six months ago, nine months ago. You're not going to repeat the same mistakes, and great things are ahead.
