Not willing to quit

[Turbine]

Hello everyone. I haven't given in to the dark and broken down any walls. Very infrequent now.

Lots of different things going on. For one I hope everyone is surviving this pandemic.

A few updates:
Working full time as a general machinist. Skills are not as rusty and growing.
Getting to use my VA benefits. So I have new glasses. Due to a reoccurring vision issue I have had a MRI and am scheduled for a neck and heart ultrasound. Still looking for the cause.

Got a sleep study done through the VA and I need a CPAP.

Last night brush with chills and fever. Talking to the VA. Feeling much better this morning but not going to work for a few days. Yes, I work in a company that is "essential".

Fired my first lawyer. New lawyer and court dates are unknown for a bit.

House is listed but a mess. W says come with a truck. Still with little advance warning and on Saturday afternoon. We are talking. Still she says "No" and then "Maybe". Working on staying calm and not getting upset.

I'm not sure how well I am at being detached. I know I still love her. Still want the honest chance to try again. We'll see.

I'm sure there is more that I should be putting down but there is still so much trying to sort out.