Cross countries separation EU

[Pack_19]

hi all,

I have collected a number of golden quotes from my thread and when the desire to write to my W of think about our memories attacks me I go and read them. It gives me strength to know there are people behind those statements that understand the situation.

My two children have been with me for the last 6 days and today after my S6 video called my W and wanted to hang up early (something I always tell him off for because I am educating her in the love to both of us) I got a phone call from my W. Shouting, it went something like this:

W: " I dont know what you and your family tell your son because he has told me he only wants to be there with you, he has more toys and he does not want to be with me. You are hurting your son. And now go on and write to me one of your love paragraphs"

Then she hung up. I was calmed, left the phone aside. Fisnished dinner, read a story to both S1 and S6 and put them to sleep. When I got the phone I had 4 missed calls and a message reading "call me". I wrote to W:

My TM: "I am sorry I was putting the kids to sleep. I am going to bed now, tomorrow I work earlier. If you want tomorrow give me a call to speak about whatever happened with S6. There will be no more paragraphs. Good night"

I am trying to change every defect on me and being the man and the father I want to be. I am loving on my son more than ever, I read to him, I build legos, play football, practice reading with him and we just started playing Spyro on ps4. I have made mistakes but I am not a bad father and I try to show my son how my W is wonderful in mentioning her as much as I can for good references. I know I cannot control my W, I dont want to read between the lines, I dont want a freaking date with her, I dont want a R now, I just want her despise and hatred to go away. Nothing seems to work, I have been NC for 4 days now, and I plan to go on like this for months. My actions so far have only pushed her away and she mocks my attempts to express love and empathy. What can I do more or new? thanks!