Thanks IW. I cribbed that quote about the universe from a podcast, I'll have to look up the exact wording because it was fantastic.
My IC advises filling out thought records in times of extreme anxiety. This has helped me, because usually I can identify the 1 or 2 thoughts that are really driving the anxiety, and the remaining thoughts can be set aside.
Mediation was completely emotionally draining today. I haven't stood up for myself like that this whole time. I feel like collapsing on the ground and sleeping for 12 hours. My STBXW and I haven't gotten into it like that, well, maybe ever. I wasn't angry or shouting, I just said that I don't agree with her characterization of events, of who I am, and that we would end up in court if there is not movement.
One issue is holding everything up. My instincts are to sacrifice on all other issues if we can resolve this one. It would mean we could avoid legal fees and court so sacrificing on financial items would be well worth it.
