MLC newbie

[Believe6]

Cardinal, Thanks for reaching out. Been out of the boards for a few days. Tried to respond on Saturday to some posts, but computer was acting funny. Maybe I needed a few days to reflect.

Thanks for saying I am empathetic and caring. I always thought I was, but am learning about my own internal workings. The more I look back at the last few years of my own life, the more I realize, much like HeartsBlessing, that I was going through my own midlife transition. Not a crisis necessarily as I didn't run away, even though I wanted to sometimes... but definitely through so many phases.

It's sad that it overlapped with some of H's because I think if I was more in touch with myself as I have grown into after the BD, I would have been able to see him enter the tunnel and possibly helped before it got to the affair. But we can't change what already is.

I am just working on being here now. Dealing with my own healing and getting a life. Learning to detach is still very hard. Dropping the rope is hard too. But I am trying. What else can we do, but take it one moment and one day at a time, right?

I'll journal again later. Right now, I am going to read others' posts and reply there. Want to help if possible.