I have seen some changes in your since you arrived over on this forum. You sound so much better, calmer and less anxious about things. You are talking more about what you and your children are doing and not as much about your work (which has its own stressors) and your h.
There is an opportunity in this for me. I hate it yes but it's there. Guess you'd call it making lemonade, silver lining, whatever crap people say to feel better. Ever see the movie or read the book Pollyanna? It's like that.
Trauma caused me to choose emotionally avoidant men who subconsciously controlled me by triggering every insecurity I had which caused anxiety. Separation anxiety is bad yes but I've chosen to heal instead of rushing to fill that void with someone else. I'm sick of handing my power over to men. I'm determined to learn to love myself, to be perfectly okay on my own. I want to be internally happy....but first I must learn to move on while walking through decades of accumulated pain and at times it feels like I'm walking in tar carrying 50 pounds on my back while someone randomly hits me.
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So, your daughter wants to learn how to bake? She should check out some recipes on the net Sewing can be so much fun. Have her start out on something simple and work up to a more complicated item. I'm excited to hear how the two of you do on the baking and sewing. Sounds like you two are a lot alike.
She's the kid that before BD thought was nothing like me. She says now we are basically the same person. S19 and I are a lot alike on nerdy things. We can talk for hours about anything. My regret is not finding common ground and bonding with D14 before she moved in with H. She says she's happy with me, confides in me, tells me she loves me but I worry.
All we've made is pizza dough twice. I have plenty of bread and need milk to bake desserts. Baking for no reason doesn't appeal to either of us. Sewing is something I'm going to have to dig deep to find the energy and motivation to do. Thrift stores are closed which buys me some time. I spent this weekend finishing up my nuns bedroom motif. I'm trying to get on top of things, a routine of sorts, then dive into hobbies. Remember I'm walking through tar right now. lol
