I'm glad you came back and I am really sorry you are still going through this with everything that is going on in the world. I can understand your frustration with the advice you received on here because it was completely different that what you were doing. I think you also should look at the other side and understand complete strangers were taking time out of their day to try to help you even though you never embraced DB from day 1.
Just answering your question. Why bother? At this point what can you find out? That your W is a liar? You already know this right? It's kind of like when the police go to inmates for information. What's the inmates (OM) agenda?
I think we're finding on the board that the virus is not cooperating with WWs who are in affairs.
