Had on a sweet track suit with a cap sleeve top to show off the work on my arms... I did pull it off but I think if I dropped another 5lb it would complete the look better.
I had a complete hysterectomy more than 4yr ago due to serious health issues and once it was done could not believe how much better I felt in less than 12hr after the surgery --- they had to split me open due to severity of illness and even that was a cake walk compared to my life before.
I did replacement hormone therapy for over 2yr but then frankly just stopped cold turkey - probably should have had the discussion with the Dr... that probably contributed SOME to the weight gain.
Either way being post menopausal now... weight gain is mostly in the belly... big bellies are a turn off for H... had it been in my hips or butt no big deal. I think that is why my self esteem suffered so greatly causing me to shut down to him. Its NOT that he said anything... he was still putting his arms around me... I was pulling away because I know how he feels about big bellies... its not that he was putting ME down. I internalized EVERYTHING.
So I've lost 20lb... and you can tell. But, I still feel my belly is big (clearly its not as big as before but I think you know what I'm saying) So I think I will save the track suit after I lose another 5lb.
TODAY - I'm wearing the jeans that I wore while dating and in early M (yes... I'm looking that good!) The jeans are fitting nicely but not overly tight. I paired it with a t-shirt of our local minor league baseball team. This is a POSITIVE. When the kids were younger we took them to several games each summer... picnic... EVERYTHING! H and I also went by ourselves for an adult only date. There are GOOD memories with this. PLUS, its a woman's t-shirt (face it ladies... t-shirts are boxy and for me... we need one that is form fitted for big B's and nice waists!)
I look good.... BUT, I still look casual because after all its moving day and it would be weird to be wearing high end nice jeans and boots.
I'm still NOT planning on having him in the house. Most stuff is in garage or attic. We have a full bonus room accessed by regular staircase over the garage - "attic". BUT, if he does come inside AND uses the master bathroom he will have to see the cute, lacey, adorable pj set hanging on the bathroom hook... NOW, I'm wearing those for me... but he won't get that... let his mind wander. That's what you get helping yourself to my bathroom... LOL.
Chicken and Noodles in crock pot....
Fresh baked cookies on counter...
Its game on for this high stress poker game of moving his crap out and acting "as if". I almost want a sports announcer giving highlights as we proceed.
Thank you everyone for the good thoughts and positive perspectives that I can do this.
