So he's gone out yesterday and today. I don't ask where only if I can expect him for supper.
My mind is racing with where he could be going, trying to find clues in what he says and wears. I know I shouldn't and I try to stop my mind, but it's so hard.
I think he's going to do work on his new place. It really amps my anxiety that he does not really worry about social distancing or using hand sanitizer and is still going out, but I keep quiet.
I'm reaching out to my family doc next week to see about anxiety medication. I need help dealing with this and can't handle it on my own.
I'm trying hard to keep up a happy front but it is getting harder as his leaving becomes more real.
