I'm so sorry for how you're feeling today. I wouldn't wish some of the feelings all of us have on my worst enemy...they are so rough. I think I know how you feel: there are some moments, for me few and far between, where I think I've gotten a handle on it, and there are so many others where I don't, and I want things back the way they were and I want that right now. Of course, I agree with what the vets are telling you: I think with everything happening right now you need to pull back hard, focus completely on you, and don't engage with FB and your MIL. During my recent contact with my husband, it was beyond painful to focus myself on keeping it light, but I did. Go into tomorrow doing your best to look great and act relaxed, and don't have any expectations. Get through it and don't engage.
I'm thinking of you.
I'm 40, H is 36. No kids. No infidelity of which I'm aware. Mini BD January 2020 -- not sure if he wants to try anymore BD March 2020 -- separation
