I'm struggling to be positive today. Tomorrow will be the one year mark that my husband had sex with the OW for the first time. It's unfortunate that I know this detailed information. All of their messages were very detailed. I'm glad that I uncovered the affair, but I don't know if those messages were a blessing or a curse. I know way too many details about the affair timeline.

I keep telling myself that this date does not define me; however, it continues to randomly invade my thoughts Then I start to go deeper into that hole and think of all of the things he said to her about the sex, her body, how he loves her, etc. Ugh!

He will be home this weekend to work on the house. All I can think about is punching him in the face....

I thought some of this pain had subsided, but it has come back in full force today. Lord, give me strength to make it through this weekend.

Me: 47 H: 45
T: 24 M:23
D23
BD #1 12/19: ILYBNILWY
BD #2 2/20: I discovered H was having an affair with OW. (OW is 21 and lives in another country)
Current R status: Separated.