~j~ Hello friends. We're all well, all 3 of us. Social distancing at home has eased up a bit. The warmer weather probably makes the garage/man cave/headquarters too hot. That's my guess. My MIL sent a package last week, which we finally opened. Things for D3 & I. She's so thoughtful. One book I got was perfect; inspirational quotes. It's what I really needed. One quote was about letting go and allowing yourself to be angry. I've been very tired of being nice & swallowing my anger. But I know that just pushes us further away. Don't need that right now. I journaled. Let all my anger & hurt spill out. I cried a little too. I felt better. I was looking at 00 in a different light. It made me want to distance more.
Practicing my at home distancing & GAL. Today was good. I felt really good today. Alive! More confident. I put more effort into my apperance and GAL all day. 00 surpised me & cooked lunch, andcwe actially ate together. He even got me a drink. Here I thought he'd gotten 2 for himself! Later we actually hungout as a family, as he video chatted with family. And again, he got me, made me a drink. What the?? After the family chat we continued to hangout. I don't know why the 180 on his part. But ignoring him kindly, doing my own thing...treating him like a roommate works. I just want to be civil & hangout! Especially during this time. D3 is much more happy when we sit/hangout together.
Nothing else new. Just trying to be more positive about myself. Carry on like normsl I guess? The for now normal. A year from now. I can't even think aheaf by a day.
Focus, focus, focus...
~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever
