You had three threads open on this forum...I have merged them all together. Please stick to one thread until you've reached 100 postings/replies. The reason for this is so that you can follow your journey and have easy access to all posting to you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.