Limbo over, now separated but in lockdown (part 3)

[Pommy99]

He messaged me first thing yesterday to ask how I was and I said I felt in a better place and thanked him for listening. He said absolutely he cared and having himself suffered/suffering from depression, he knows how bad it can feel.

Today, again he texted how I was , I said great hope you are too (didn’t want to ask him a question, just left it as a statement.). I then got a few more texts with questions ...are you cycling today? (Me-maybe later)....did you ride yesterday (me- yes I did)...where did you go? (I stopped replying at this point). Then he texted again with “here’s the photo of <Mediterranean island> that I was telling you about. WTF!!!! You may remember about 2 months ago, when he was undecided about leaving and trying to convince himself he should stay, he kept going on and on about this island that we went to a couple of years ago and had the most amazing holiday, and how he’d love to go back, and bringing up photos of it. He knows it was my favourite holiday. I have no idea why he is sending me pics of it now. There could be 50 reasons and I’m not going to try and second guess which of those 50 it might be. I replied and said’ wow that’s beautiful’ and he replied with ‘I know, love that place’ with a love heart emoji.

I am trying to stay off his merry-go-round - i assume he’s still on it, and it’s spinning at 1000rpm! I have no plans to see him iver the 4-day Easter weekend now. He will have the children at some point, which is super hard for me in lockdown, but I’ve got lots I can do in the garden.