@ Wooba: Thanks for calling me out on the pursuing, and reminding me that I cannot control him. I needed to hear that. I haven't mentioned it again. He's scheduled to go the last week of May. I'm hoping to "mentally" be in a better place by then.
@ Beth1112: I felt like I was starting to detach just a bit, then he came home for the weekend to repair the house and we get along so well that I start to get hopeful. Guess I need to work on having no expectations as well as detaching.
That's where I find myself right now. Today has been a good day of no contact. I did not spend the day obsessing over him or the OW. I have to admit that I'm still checking his text/call/data log. Only 3 times a day, instead of every hour. That's progress, I think. LOL. Baby steps. Detaching for a few hours or one day is better than nothing at all.
I thank you both for your support. ((hugs))
Me: 47 H: 45 T: 24 M:23 D23 BD #1 12/19: ILYBNILWY BD #2 2/20: I discovered H was having an affair with OW. (OW is 21 and lives in another country) Current R status: Separated.
