Thanks for replies Cwarrior!
Regarding porn I dont mean to do this in any regard for my wife.
This is all for me. A better me!
For me it is an addiction and I watched way way too much during my 12 years with W.
Erotic novels sounds like a good place to shift my focus in these times.
My porn has mostly been much more graphic and VERY objectifying of women.

I am considering talking to W's father this week. Might meet him due to certain circumstances.
I would basically say I am very sorry all this has happen and that I am doing what I need to do for me and for the kids.
Man to man sort of. Partly because this is a development in me I want (To dare to take uncomfortable conversations), partly because I think he will loose out on time with his grand children and because I (at least used to) respect him.
Basically a man to man conversation. Honor and integrity.
What is your take on this?
Any suggestions of what to say? (Unless you think this is a bad idea)


Me: 34
Stbxw: 30
D:5 D:3
Mini bd: May/June 2019
Married: Aug 2019
BD: 6th Dec 2019
OM Confirmed: Feb 2020
March 2020: I filed for D
Waiting for D to be finalized and W to move out end of January 2021