I do so much self-talk that sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy! I keep reminding myself to only worry about today, and believe nothing he says and half of what he does. He was listening to break up songs in the kitchen last night about not wanting to break up. I kept telling myself that I have been getting mixed messages for months. He knows that I want to work on out marriage so if he he wants to, he just has to talk to me. This is seriously so difficult right now, but I'm trying to take it one day at a time. If I think too far down the road, I will lose it.
