I'm so sad today. All I want to do is cry. H is here working on the house. I'm trying to distance myself from him because I am very tempted to discuss our R, his A and the OW21. If I do it, I'll regret it later and it will only make me feel worse. I want to tell him that he's being such a fool. Does he really think anything will come of this? She's too young for him. Honestly, I'm not sure if she is 21 - she may be 20. Ugh.
This hurts so bad. I just can't believe this is my life now. It is so hard to accept. My husband is leaving me for someone so young. What in the hell is wrong with him? I feel like I'm not good enough. I feel like a piece of garbage he has tossed out. I have read all of their messages. He told her he has been looking for a love like this since his teens? What? He's a 45 year old grown man, we have been married for 23 years. What in the He!! is he talking about? Does he even know what he is talking about. I'm so afraid we are going to get a D and he is going to marry her. He doesn't care how my D23 will fee. This OW is younger than our daughter. I get it that she made him feel young and lustful again, but love? Come on, this is not love. This is lust. The Affair Fog.
I feel so devastated and hopeless..
Why am I not good enough?
Me: 47 H: 45 T: 24 M:23 D23 BD #1 12/19: ILYBNILWY BD #2 2/20: I discovered H was having an affair with OW. (OW is 21 and lives in another country) Current R status: Separated.
