Things are still going really well. Due to the virus, our couples weekend thing was canceled, but we are supposed to do one locally at the end of May (presuming things are back to 'normal' by then).
Fortunately, we are both still working during this madness, but neither in high risk situations. I live in a city that was hit very hard, and feel grateful that it isn't impacting me financially. Also, I am glad to not be S anymore during this stuff, Jesus. I do not know if this means H's deployment will be impacted - guess we will see. As of now, I don't think it is? It's for the end of June.
H has moved most of his stuff back to our house. He has spoken to his landlord and working out breaking the lease. He has had to travel where his house is twice, but only for a day or two at a time. He's been excited to be back, and fixed a lot of small things that needed fixing without me nagging. Also, a big 180 for me here: I told him I would listen and help if asked about the situation with him breaking his lease, but that I am going to step back from it emotionally because I am frustrated by it. I think this made us both feel better - he has been handling it on his own, and isn't worried about me constantly bringing it up or saying things that aren't constructive about it. This felt really good to do and be up front with it. It's his mess, and he is cleaning it up.
We do have disagreements sometimes, but handle them much better than we had in the past. He seems much more grounded and open, still. He has not seen his IC, and due to everything being shut down we have not found a new MC, but I am still seeing IC. IC had asked a while ago if H would be open to talking to him, so H did talk to my IC separately during the week. H told me about it, the IC asked him a few questions like how am I doing, what does he think I should work on, if he could do S differently would he have. IC and I didn't discuss their convo yet but will this upcoming week. IC said he has a lot of notes, and that H was incredibly complimentary of me the entire time. We did all of the exercises in a marriage book, and the answers together were refreshing and fun to go over.
I worry about sometimes being in 'honeymoon' phase, or if this whole social shut down is making things too idyllic, but our normal is only semi disrupted since he is still having to travel some, I am still working, and so is he. We did have a pretty tense disagreement where I think I handled it better but I felt very disrespected by how he was acting. He has apologized and identified his behavior missteps on his own. I know things aren't going to be perfect, so it was good to see how this ended up fully playing out. I still have bouts of being hurt, and am challenging myself to live in the present.
