CanBird, You are strong. You can do this. It is hard living with someone in MLC. I am doing it. Your H did help when you asked. That's something. Remember, they can't give what they don't have. He's so very lost. How can he give you the support, caring, love you need when you aren't giving it to yourself? Be kind to yourself. Remember, you can do this. You have been doing this.
Stop looking at him to get you back on track. I keep doing the same. I keep wanting my old H and M back, but it's gone. It's all gone. We have to face that. Even if they live in our home with us, they aren't the same. Even if sometimes it seems like we can see the old them in the current them... they are gone. Let him do what he needs to do.
Look in the mirror at yourself. Look directly in your own eyes. Tell yourself, "I love you. You will get through this. You are so strong. You are so amazing. You are enough." And believe every word. Do that multiple times a day if you must.
If you have other self care things you like to do, do them. Journal, pray, meditate, listen to music, write poetry, read poetry, look for inspirational quotes... or funny videos. But don't focus on him.
As job says, you didn't break him so you can't fix him. Be good to you... and your kids, of course. But if you need to cry, scream, or beat on things, go hide out and do that. Let the feelings out, then regroup and give yourself the love and kindness you wish he would give you. You have it to give in spades... so give it to YOU. Blessings
Thank you (((B6 )))
Well said and 100% true! This of great help. Much appreciated.
Focus On YOU
*Mantra for my mirror*
~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever
