I am going to suggest that you try to stop engaging your h in conversations. He is very much aware that you miss his friendship, companionship, etc. Just leave him be. If he wants/needs to talk to you he will. Please, please try to refrain from having relationship conversations w/him. He knows you love him and want him to be okay. When you have these conversations, believe it or not, you are putting pressure on him and right now, he is only thinking of himself and the inner pain he is dealing with.
Now it is time to work on YOU! Keep the focus on you and allow God to work on your h.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
