MLC newbie

[Believe6]

Journal
How can we really let go and trust this will work out as it should? I know I have to keep focused kn self care, self reflection and personal healing, but underlying that is this desperation for my husband back and for my family to be intact. Why is sleeping fraught with longing and sadness and hunger for a person who no longer feels the same? Living in the same house, pretending to be good roommates, it's brutal. I know others have it worse, but it just hurts sometimes.

I exercise, listen to great podcasts and videos to help with self growth. I pray often. I ask for help and release. Then my heart starts pounding, my skin feels like its covered with ants, and my mind makes me dizzy. When will this stop? How can we stop it
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Peace today, thank you. I hear you. it's so hard in the midst of the physical and emotional pain to see that this is an opportunity. Dreams are so hard to release when they didn't feel like dreams but more of a real future. So clear, so true and so sweet that letting go hurts like nothing I've ever felt. I know grief comes in stages. I wonder if not knowing whether he will leave me is keeping me in this waiting stage where grief and hope keep cycling.

Trying to breathe. Feeling like I'm choking