Time to file? (Thanks BenB - part 2)

[Mumin]

Hey again (funny how 24 hours off of here sometimes feels like weeks).

Thank you for your input guys.

To be clear:
I did not file just to get a reaction, and I still believe I am ready.
My previous post was impulsively written and doesn't show the full picture.
I was coming on her to ventilate my feelings and get support...
I am sure days will come with more feelings of loss/sorrow, and I recall BenB you had the same feeling a short while after you filed.
Which I am sure most people do.
As you said Ovr, missing and staying strong is fine.

It is true I did the hard work but I am actually glad I did.
Looking back on this I believe it will mean quite a lot to me.
Also important to consider the 6 month waiting period and since we have kids not much will change for a few months.

Anyway I read LHs post right before falling a sleep last night and woke up with a similar feeling so today I arranged a telephone-IC and talked through things, also spoke a bit to my mother.
I feel much better and am starting to consider how my perspectives on things change now.
Also, I have NOT shown any of this to W. I have been quite active actually with work, fixing the car, workout, groceries etc.
I will not ask her about if this is what she really wants. I wont be asking her anything right now...
Since we have kids I will have to decide how I would like things to be in the future, in regards to W.
My favorite quote trough my threads(from Ovr):

SHOW them that life in 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond to it.