When your words do not match your actions you come off as weak in regards to this.
You miss her and want to be with her but you filed for divorce and took all the hard work away from her. That hard work is hard for a reason. If you didn't mail it yet you can hang tight on it.
It's one thing to say you miss but you gotta file for D and stay strong but you aren't there IMO.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.