H will be back this weekend to work on the house. He will only be here one night instead of two. That's probably for the best because night's see to be the worst. I am tempted to go in his room and crawl in bed with him and snuggle like old times. However, I know that time has passed and it's over.
I'm not really sure how to act when he is here. Last weekend we went and picked-up dinner together, ate together, and even watched tv together. Was this a mistake on my part? He is the one who asked me what I wanted for dinner. He even cooked breakfast for me. I don't want him to mistake my friendliness for acceptance of what he has done or forgiveness. I want to leave the door open for a chance at recon in the future, but I also don't want him to think I'm okay with this. I don't want to be a doormat or plan B.
This is so confusing.
Me: 47 H: 45 T: 24 M:23 D23 BD #1 12/19: ILYBNILWY BD #2 2/20: I discovered H was having an affair with OW. (OW is 21 and lives in another country) Current R status: Separated.
