Things have been a lot more pleasant between us since I started engaging again, but not pursuing. We've had friendly conversations about the happenings in the world, what's going on in our day, the brownies she made, our daughter, etc.
One conversation that's been a little surreal is that she's been telling me all about her search for insurance quotes for the house, and the cars she plans to keep. She's telling me, who she's contacted, what they've asked for, who didn't get back with her, about the rates she's gotten and how they compare, and the programs they have for possible discounts with monitoring (for her daughter's car). All the while, I'm kind of thinking, "Why are you telling me all of this? Am I supposed to have an interest in your insurance endeavors? Should I care what it ends up costing you? This is the kind of conversation a married couple would have." Don't get me wrong, I have no problem listening, or engaging in this conversation, it's just another one of the many, perplexing things that go on, where I just want to go, "Huh?!?"
I also have to make a decision regarding the divorce. My lawyer wants to make a proposal on the assets that I'm conflicted about. On one hand, I could ask for a significant amount more than she proposed to try and get the most for myself while she is wanting to get out, but on the other hand, I'm not sure I consider it really fair. I know a huge reason I have as much money saved up as I do, is because of how much of the financial burden she took on during the marriage. It's hard for me to think I should ask for even more, even if I can get it. Especially, if it would wipe out her retirement. Of course, asking for it, doesn't mean she's forced into agreeing to it.
I've been praying on it, but still haven't come to a conclusion. I'm not in any rush on that either.
