Few days ago H called and talked about weekend plans, he told me that he’s coming with us to visit my parents.....and then mentioned wanting to separate our bank accounts and close our joint credit card (SUPER WEIRD). Asked me to “think about it” like he always does- keep throwing me the ball and leaving it at my court. (Next time he will then ask: have you thought about the situation with our bank accounts and what to do?) which is rather annoying at this point. I think he’s running out of things to get a rise out of me, so bank accounts and credit cards are the next things on his list to try.
Then today he called and mentioned that he’s coming still but he has a “business dinner” with his colleague. I said sure, but please make sure to be safe and not carry back any virus with you (we don’t have shut downs yet where we are). He then said something suicidal. I said, well we might be okay if we get it, but I always worry about us bringing anything back to my parents. He said “of course I understand.”
And then he said, “I miss you.”
I wasn’t sure how to respond, but he quickly said something else to move the conversation forward. I guess it was one of those moments. Having a crisis, had too much to drink probably, and a window cracked open very briefly but then will be closed again.
I wanted to say, I miss the old you. Where the hell is him?
