I was updating yesterday while H was gone, H came home so had to stop. Weekend was good, I'm posting through Saturday night and then will do yesterday.
I'm looking more at the positive as the negatives (alcohol/OW) are one and the same I've decided.
H was a noshow Friday night. He was rained out at work along with everybody else and they all headed to the bar to drink…all day. And of course H ended up at OW’s..surprise, surprise...they go hand in hand.
He showed up here mid-morning yesterday. Headed directly to the bathroom and then after that came into the bedroom where I was and promptly asked “did you miss me” and then “no.” I said yes I missed you but it really doesn’t matter, there’s nothing I can do about it. Maybe I should have been more honest and said “no” as I really didn’t miss him.
He helped move the mattress on the bed, we turned it and while it was up I vacuumed. A friend of ours had a baby and I said I was going to drop the gift off. H told me that he was with friend’s H about half the day yesterday..drinking. Said he didn’t want to go with me, but he did go with me and S. Went to eat first and then visit. Wanted to stop at the grocery story but H insisted I go home as his stomach was acting up.
H said he’d go see Shrek II with S and me. Well after we bought the tickets H tells me to take him home, his stomach is still acting up and he doesn’t think he’ll be able to sit through the movie. We tried to shop for a little bit since the movie was sold out when we got there and we had to buy tickets for the next show and it was after they had been bought that H said he wasn’t going.
I was a tad upset…thinking you can drink all day, spend night at OW’s but when it’s time to do a family thing..you’re sick and it’s because of the day before drinking. H thinks it was the “taco bell” lunch he is so clueless, it’s from his drinking but he refuses to acknowledge it!! I did pray that he would get sick from drinking..so maybe the good Lord heard me.
Took H home and was on the way back and he calls me from the bathroom to let me know it was a good thing he didn’t go…I won’t share details. S and I had a FABULOUS time at the movie and it was very entertaining.
Came home had dinner, our cable was out all day, it’s been raining, storming since Friday. H then asked if I was going to sleep downstairs. I said I can do that, you sleep up here…didn’t want to be awake all night with the lightning and storm.
H then said are we all going to sleep downstairs? I said we can all sleep up here? H goes into the bedroom, and I come and asked if he was sleeping up here. H said I’m going to OW (except he uses the name of the town)! I said “then go, I want you here, but you obviously don’t want to be here. He looked shocked and didn’t’ say a word. Oh and then earlier in the day he said “what don’t one of you give in” to which I said “I’m not doing anything” meaning I’m not doing anything to keep you here. I don’t think he interpreted it that way though and then said I “should divorce him” I said go ahead.
I watched the Last Samuri on Saturday..awesome movie. I usually don't like violent movies (turned the sound off/hid behind a pillow during fighting). Even my H asked me why I was watching it. It wasn't the violence it was the Samuri's way of life, their culture that was so fascinating to me. That they prefer death to shame...well you can imagine what went through my mind. When they are defeated..death. I was really moved by that movie in ways that I can't put into words. It really has me thinking.
When they are defeated..death. I was really moved by that movie in ways that I can't put into words. It really has me thinking.
