MLC newbie

[Believe6]

Sorry, I haven't replied Kindly, Job, Cardinal and DnJ...

Been working through my stuff and reading a lot. My D played some songs on her uke last night in honor of H's dad's 1 year passing anniversary. We cried. I held her. Then H held her. Later when I went to say goodnight to the kids, I checked in on H who as in his office. Not playing vids as is his usual. He was looking at stuff, but I am trying not to care. I told him how sorry I am for his loss and that I did really love his dad. I asked to give him a hug and he did let me. He held me like he would have in the past. I hope it gave him comfort.

Today is a new day. We have stayed out of each other's way. If we do interact, it's pretty roommate like. I guess I am getting used to this new distancing. Social distancing? Bah... this is MLC distancing. LOL.

I have felt anxious then did some self soothing things... tapping, reading, checking other sites, reading about MLC and reminding myself of the stages and that as an LBS, I am doing just fine.

Then I took a long walk. Hardly anyone outside. The butterflies were rampant. I felt connected to source. While walking I was listening to a spiritual teacher I love and processing. I really was working on my PIES. Felt good to physically be doing something, intellectually be doing something (i.e. youtube), emotionally be doing something (smiling at the butterflies, passersby, the trees), and spiritually be doing something (feeling grateful).

Is it wrong to post things to Instagram? I don't want to poke the bear. Will it look like I am trying to get attention? I don't want him to think I am trying to get attention when I post. I am doing so to remind myself and those I love of positive things. I do hate having to worry about stuff like this. I am getting a life. I want to share the life I am getting for ME.

Thank you all for your support, honesty and caring. I feel loved. Not just from myself but from strangers. It's the oddest thing and the most amazing thing too. Blessings