I had to address rent increase with H today, because I realized we needed to change the amount on our auto bill pay and couldn't do it from my end due to some weird bank thing, even though we have a joint account. He hadn't seen the email the landlord sent and, to my surprise, said, "That's expensive. That svcks." I said, Yeah, but it's still less than every other place on the market.

An hour later he came outside to tell me he emailed the landlord, told her we both lost our PT jobs (guess he forgot mine was FT) and that we're getting a divorce, and she agreed to not raise the rent. He said, "Just to let you know." I didn't act phased and didn't really say anything. He went back inside.

Why have hope? Remind me again how this could ever work out in the future. H seems normal sometimes and lost others. He hasn't brought up D since November. I am spiraling and don't know what to do. I don't understand why he won't file or talk about it (until now), what he thinks the near-future is going to look like (MO--when? He clearly has no idea how expensive the market is now if he thought our rent was going to be expensive.

Ugh.


T: 16 M:10
BD 6/2019