Ok....I don't see why you wouldn't want D at this point but I guess that is your choice.
Your right its semantics...
Right now with the court we are in legal S ---- he hasn't changed it yet. He acted like he wasn't going to but even if he wanted the courts are closed right now. That's why I said S.
While my H has waffled back and forth over time and even at one point stated that we are getting D. That legal S states that the M could be saved and he knows we are getting D, I've always said I wanted legal S. I want a cooling off period. I want time apart. I have never wavered. I have been consistent when he asks over and over again why its so important to me.
Who knows... in the cooling off period I may just decide we have to D. I just don't want to make a decision based on a knee jerk reaction based solely on emotion. I want to make a decision without emotion and time apart will help me get to that place.
From his last text 4 days ago he is still planning on moving. I accept that he has no hope for a future with me. I would be dishonest to state that I hope that would change. While I have come to accept that only person I can control is myself and I have to get to a place where I have to be okay on my own, I have to have hope that maybe he would change his mind about our M.
Isn't that what I am to be doing? Hoping for the best and expecting the worst?
