May - kudos to you for being so strong in all of this.
I wonder if the whole feeling trapped piece of the virus is working against him in that - he doesn't want to fully admit the extent that the A hurt you because he can't escape being confronted with it, so is just putting it on hold indefinitely? (I am not doing the best at using my words here but hopefully you understand what I am trying to say).
I am sure it is hard to get emotional distance from a lot of this stuff when there aren't regular markers of time like certain social things, etc. And probably A LOT of free time to think about the A on your part just because it's there and harder to get any kind of distance from.
Re: friendzone - do you think you're subconsciously holding back b/c of A stuff inside? Or do you think he is? Or you both are?
