So I haven't much to offer but to appreciate your resilience in your sitch having gone on for over a year. I find the last 8 weeks of my life to be exhausting.
No one is perfect and who would blame you for taking a soft sweet moment and asking him to come home... ultimately it has to be his decision.
I had the same problems as H would leave for days at a time but insisted this was still his home... coming I and out on a whim left me anxious and stressed. Your H is moved out but still there all the time... like he didnt move out but has the ultimate man cave now elsewhere. That has to be hard. Frankly, while I know it's best for me to H gone I miss the moments when he was here even in an angry capacity.
