So I’m going nuts here. I’m officially quarantined - in a way that’s good because I flatten the curve at work a bit, but my symptoms were so mild they could have been allergies. And it’s almost 10 days and no test results from ex (who Has pretty bad symptoms and good reason to believe he’s positive). The big problem is no testing. Even if I quarantine for 2 weeks - if I don’t know that I was actually positive , I go back to work and can just get it and expose it to vulnerable people. There’s no logic to any of this. By the time you even get the test results the quarantine is finished and then if I was in fact negative - I just lost 2 weeks of work and now I’m out of sick time? There’s no excuse for not having testing. I am so ashamed for our leadership. It’s such an embarrassment. But not only embarrassing- extremely dangerous. Especially when you hear about all that insider trading. I can’t believe you can deflect and blame and blatantly lie and still be supported. I know this isn’t a political forum - so I will tie it in to saying it’s exactly like listening to a walkaway, self serving narcissist. Something the majority of us have experienced.
I miss my boyfriend so much during all this. I feel like we have been together forever and we just connect so well. I can’t believe a year ago at this time I was breaking up with that other guy. God. So much can happen in a year. I remember how bad I felt breaking things off and I can’t believe I ever felt bad about that. I haven’t been writing that much because I really have nothing to complain about. Being with him, makes me so grateful that ex left - because now I know what a healthy relationship feels like. We have chemistry, we talk every day and throughout the day, we have similar love languages and communication skills, and we respect each other as parents. Plus we have insane chemistry. It has been so so so wonderful so far. If I had experienced someone like this, I never would have settled for someone like my ex husband (who I dated when I was young and had very little experience).
I’m struggling to keep my son entertained. Especially on the rainy days. I’m losing my temper easily and then I feel bad. He’s adhd and it’s just tough cause he can’t really occupy himself without doing destructive things. He talks on stop and makes noises just for the sake of making noise. I’m seriously gonna lose it. I love him more then anything but I’m gonna lose it.
