We certainly have, Alison! I do feel like I'm coping with pandemic stuff so much better because of BD though. Still not easy having this much uncertainty but I feel calm most of the time, unlike most people I know. And I have GAL and self care down pat thanks to this place. Quick update. I rang H 2 days ago just to see how he was doing. He didn't want to talk, just said he'd been working hard and that he was annoyed it was dark by the time he finished work. He's saving 2 hours commuting PER DAY and is somewhere peaceful and scenic with good food access, you'd think he'd be counting his blessings. A week ago he complained to me that his mum rang him and moaned about her life and didn't consider him at all, he seemed very cross about it. This is exactly what he did to me! He asked how the kids were but not once since this has started has he asked me how I am, except to see if any of us have symptoms, I think because he's so scared of getting it. I'm starting to despise and dislike him, different from the hatred I felt before off and on. What a weak pathetic man. I'm actively thinking about D now. Trying to think how that can happen in the midst of all this, it probably needs to wait a bit. I think I am no longer standing for my M now though. I had already given up any hope of R, now I am finally coming to terms with life without H. It will be awesome! I am really looking forward to having sex with someone new! Just need to wait long enough for that not to involve risk of a deadly virus lol.
