Your h will continue to go back and forth until he gets closure from within. Once he starts closing the doors for himself then you will start noticing a difference.
Do not read between the lines because that is exactly where satan wants you to be in order to start everything over inside of you. Do not give him any foothold whatsoever. Trust in what the Lord is telling you. Remember the things that he has shown you in the word and what he has told you personally.
Your h is a tormented soul and it will not stop until he faces himself and repents of what he has done. My best suggestion for you to really understand what is happening to your h is to read Proverbs 6:20-36 and Proverbs 7:1-27. Both scriptures talk about what a person goes through when they fall into adultery.
He is fighting a spiritual demon and you need to bind that spirit from him. That is why this is a spiritual battle and not a physical battle. That is why the Lord has you praying and reading because right now, you are the one with the strength to fight against satan for your husband. Bind those spirits that are around him and break that yoke that keeps dragging him down.
The Lord is trying to get you past your emotional state, like he did me, in order for you to see the real truth of what is happening. As long as satan can keep you feeling the emotional part of what is happening, then he keeps you from praying your h through this. Do you understand what I mean?
One of the biggest lessons that the Lord is teaching us in this time is learning how to control our emotions. Once we have our emotions under control, we are clearer about what it is that we need to pray for and what we need to do. As long as we are emotional about the situation, the Lord can not speak to us or guide us because we are not hearing him.
See, when we allow our emotions to get in there, we are thinking of ourselves and the affect this is having on us and our children, but not thinking of the fact that this is literally killing our spouses spiritually. When people tell you to focus on you and your children, it is to build yourself up to become more confident and strong. Not to dwell on the pain that you are going through and that is hard not to do at times.
When we dwell on our pain, we are ineffective in the spiritual war that we are in. That is how satan controls us is through our emotions and that is how many of us make our choices and end up in situations very much like what your h is in.
That is how we stay in addictive behaviors because we are going by how they make us feel and not by what is right or wrong. You did really well by going to your Bible instead of dwelling on where he was or was not. You are beginning to see the importance of doing that instead of allowing satan to reak havoc on your thoughts. So the Lord protected you against that and allowed you to sleep and rest.
Sure, you can not fix your h but you sure can pray for him and that is what you did.
