Why is it all of a sudden I feel like I've been working too hard to make H see how wonderful I am/can be when in the long run I don't think it's going to matter. Maybe it's not that I'm "working" so hard because I'm not I guess. I've been trying to be so much to him for the last couple of months and he's being nothing to me.
Am I supposed to be showing H how wonderful I am. The things he complained about that I didn't do for him:
Making his lunches Making dinners Inititating conversations with him--(when a lot of the times he doens't answer) Showing more interest in
Don't get me wrong I'm not complaining, I reallly am enjoying some of the things that in the past I didn't want to do for H. But H doesn't notice or doesn't seem to care. Well I'm assuming here but he's never once said thank you for anything. Most people would, but then again he's not most people and really never has said thank you. Just takes it all for granted. Right now I'm feeling that he can go back to OW, maybe he would be happier there.
I won't ask him to move out, as I really don't think he will, but maybe it's time to back off in word and action and see what happens Becuase as I mentioned above why should I provide these services for a person who doesn't appreciate them. OW would love to wait on H hand and foot and kiss is a**, too.
Time to head out. I guess I'm not sure where my head is going, but it's time to reassess my sitch and my goals.
