Thanks both, yes I think I could have been more compassionate and gentler than I was in my delivery of basically telling him to leave. However as AS said, he is cake eating, whether he intends to or not, and in my head I can hear the annoying whine of OW (because when he accidentally butt-dialled me one time he was out with her and she was telling him when he should and shouldn’t answer my calls) telling him “it’s your house too, you can go there when you like, do what you like, you pay for it too, don’t let her stop you” etc etc. Of course this could all be in my mind but it is what is driving my anger and mistrust right now.
He arrived earlier to collect the kids, he asked if I was ok, are you sure etc, so I said I was fine, I was upbeat , he told me about his day, I know he likes sharing this stuff with me. He was tactile again and also gave me a hug. I gave him a piece of steak for dinner and a bag of popcorn so He didn’t have to go to the supermarket and queue outside in the cold to get in!!
I feel better now I’ve had a monumental cry!!
M:49 H:49 T:20 M:18 D:16 D:14
EA: Feb 2019-May 2020 Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020 H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020 EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020 Recon #2: since Nov 2020