Work is slow today. I'm kind of cutting off my mom and limiting contact with friends. My mom has the best intentions but any time I blow off steam about H I'm inundated with lengthy texts about contacting atty, getting a protective order, change his address to his parents so I can get him off auto insurance, blah blah blah.
I'm overwhelmed on a good day and the bad days I just cave to what I eventually think are bad decisions made out of anxiety.
I need a clear head.
I'm willing to take steps to protect myself financially and I have done that. Paperwork is filed. I'm in no rush to hurry this along... the slower the better right? Give us more time to see if I continue to want recon or he continues to want to move on. Either one of us could change our minds at any time.
I want to stop the negative interactions. That's 100% up to me. To stop engaging him. If I can to give him what he wants (obviously not releasing funds for him to buy a house.)
I'm working out everyday until it hurts so much I cry.
And, I'm dealing with the old adage becareful what you wish for... :-) I asked to be left alone and I will most likely get it and it will probably drive me a little nuts that he is respecting my wishes for a change.
