Thanks for your support. Feeling rock bottom right now. I replied to H at 8am, thanked him for his understanding and validated his feelings too.
I later contacted to him to explain that D16 was going to be contacting him because xyz issue and I needed him to know the backstory so he got the full picture. Said that D13 was also struggling with her depression. And then I said I was struggling too. And we exchanged a few texts about how we were feeling but nothing specifically about how we felt about each other, M, S etc. Feel like I really pushed him away last night. And that it was a bad thing to do as I wasn’t showing him my best side.
Long weekend ahead in lockdown!!
Hope you guys all have a lovely weekend insofar as you can at this time of marital and C19 stress!
M:49 H:49 T:20 M:18 D:16 D:14
EA: Feb 2019-May 2020 Separated: Mar-early Aug 2020 H asked to reconcile: Jun 2020 EA relapse: Oct/Nov 2020 Recon #2: since Nov 2020
