~j~ Yesterday marks a week since we jointly signed our D papers. Then the pandemic situation caused flight cancellations which lead 00 to stay here. And here we are. Yesterday was a good day. I was positive, listed to D3s happy playlist. It really set the tone for the day. Her & I did our thing & 00 retreated to the garage/man cave or "head quarters" as I like to call it. Seriously, things are much easier when I think of him as a spy. And he very well might be? Makes for an interesting read right?
Any way. Part of my more positive outlook is to FOCUS more on myself! LET go and LIVE my own life. In the moments, during these times, GAL is really difficilt, but the more I distance myself, the better I feel. And 00 seems to want to hangout more!? He's been emailing me things WE can do to save $ during this time. Setting me up online for healthcare? I think he might of sent me/signed me up something for life insurance. Good grief. How about having a CONVERSATION! He got grumpy because I made my own dinner & he wanted to cook. It's like because he's still here he wants to take care of us. The GUILT is still driving him to set us up to be okay before he leaves again. But, if we wete still married, he'd do most of this stuff.
Back to being positive. I've had to self talk & STOP caring about 00 & his phone. He is constantly on it. Rading, texting... I don't care. Great he's informed & shares with me. I've stopped checking when he's online with ow/gf at certain times. IT DOES'NT MATTER!! At least he sneaks out and goes "head quarters" to speak with the other "agents". I have to keep my sense of humor in all of this; it's what gets me by.
Well, today is another day. Not sure what's us girls are up to. Apparently I don't have enough laundry soap to survive "this". 00 tore me a new one over the things I over looked. He then said he forgot to buy cheese & I pretended to rip him a new one.
Hope everyone is doing okay during this crazy time. Remember, we are all facing challenges at this time. We will all be okay. We CAN and will survive.
(((( Safe Distance ))))))
~Never Give Up ~ 2019 Mar BD June BD Dec Aow/xgf 2020 Jan he wants D Feb he flys2 ow Mar returns stuck here C19 Lckdwn Apr he leaves for work until Nov Oct D FINAL 2020 Living MY Happiest Life Ever
