I'm very anxious this week because H is coming to the house this weekend to do some repairs. We will have to work together the next few weeks to get he house ready to be put on the market. I'm hoping I can keep it together and not talk about the R or OW. It will be very tempting. I want to ask him to stop seeing her and work on our R but I know that's not the right thing to do. He has to make the decision on his own. I cant control him or the situation.
He tells me that he has lost all his dignity but still continues to talk to OW and has a trip planned in May to go see her. I asked him not to go. How the hell can he say he has no dignity left but still continue with the A?
I'm trying to let go. It's very hard because I'm a control freak by nature. I pray that God will work this out and He has a plan for my life. I'm not in control.
Me: 47 H: 45 T: 24 M:23 D23 BD #1 12/19: ILYBNILWY BD #2 2/20: I discovered H was having an affair with OW. (OW is 21 and lives in another country) Current R status: Separated.
