Cathy,
You have grown so much, it is truly amazing and wonderful to see it.

I, too, feel SO tested. I feel like a kid in school, that I have so much to learn, and everyday it seems like something else.

I think the Lord is using my S16 to illustrate a lot of things to me... that even subconsciously I still try to be in control.

It is so hard to lean completely on the Lord, but I know that is what he is telling me to do. You are so right, anxiety is easier since it is the norm. But what a waste of energy.

Stop thinking that your H is not "normal." Stop wanting him to be something else. This is just more of the same wanting to change him - waste of time stuff. He is doing the best he can do... I don't think there is such a thing as a "normal" H... certainly not on the bb!!

You are doing so well with your walk with God. You seem to really be listening to him.

I pray every day that our Hs will have the courage and strenth to listen and to follow the Lord.

Have a great weekend, Cathy.

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.