Geez Louise!! I spoke with H a little while ago and then had a meeting so am posting now.
I left him a voicemail asking if he was going to be able to make the bank appt. at 4:30 and to let me know. I get a call at work, but couldn't answer as my boss was lurking. A little later he's calling from our house. I answer my phone here, say Hello and nothing, say Hello again...a very deep throated "hello" from the other end. I said how are you, you sound tired (and depressed I'm thinking). H says yeah, so and so had an accident with his crane yesterday so we all went out drinking. I said you sound rough. Talked about the accident and how it happened. His coworker is a drinker, big time. There are two guys he works with/drinks with that were out last night and whoever else felt the need to drink their problems away...geez louise...grow up. We then talked about our bank appt., he's going to pick up S from daycare and meet me at the bank at 4:30.
So at this point I have no idea where he stayed last night, it could have been at a coworkers or OW's, and will not bring it up.
He did get into his fishing tournament this weekend and I said well it's good you have the afternoon off (he was rained out at work) then you can get ready as he's leaving right from work tomorrow. So he'll be gone through Saturday night.
If only I had a normal H that called me to say he was going to be late from work or an even more normal H who didn't drink. H did call me yesterday about 2:30 which would have been right after the accident, but I wasn't able to take the call nor did he leave me a message.
That I ASSume he's with OW and for that matter he could have been. I'm assuming he was so drunk maybe he doesn't even remember or he could have stayed anywhere including his truck!! Arghhhh!.
To put my trust, my expectations in the Lord moving forward is what I need to focus on and NOT to focus on the circumstances any longer as they may not be what they seem. ASSuming is making me nuts and is a waste of time, that darn Satan!!
Quote: The Lord has been preparing you for this for months now with what he has been teaching you. You have to put your trust completely in the Lord and DO NOT look at the circumstances and DO NOT give into what Satan is trying to make you give into.
Laurie you posted this to me on May 2 and I read it yesterday and again this morning. After talking with H today and looking at the circumstances of last night it is clear as a bell now that Satan is working very hard to destroy us.
